The new normal

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Forget about setting schedules, syncing calendars, or crafting some semblance of normalcy in my life. It’s not going to happen. Even though my soul craves order and organization, the universe thinks otherwise.

After giving myself a month to just relax and enjoy life home alone, October was the month of getting back into it — whatever “it” is supposed to be. I was going to polish the résumé, network a little to find freelance jobs, go to the career center for advice, research graduate degree programs, sign up for job retraining, reinvent the wheel.

Yeah, right.

Here it is Nov. 3 and none of those things happened. The networking event? Ended up falling on one of those teacher planning days. Training session last week? Had to cancel when Girl from the West’s car died in a far-off subdivision. I’ve been the go-to parent for the last few weeks while husbands and fathers traveled to far-off regions for their work. Seems as though every time I make a plan to move forward, the universe makes another plan.

Did I mention I took on a big project with a short deadline?

My inner wonder woman refuses to concede defeat. I keep thinking if I do things differently, they’ll come out in my favor. Is it any surprise that I have relapsed?

This is my new normal and I’m just going to have to accept it for now. Swimming against the current just gets me sick and crazy. I don’t want to be sick.  I have two sick kids in my house now. I don’t want to be crazy. I want to buck the family trend.

So, in a big middle finger to the universe, I’m participating in National Blog Posting Month for the second time. My first NaBloPoMo began while on a junket to Vegas with full-blown pneumonia, why not do it again with a raging case of the hives?

Life is good.


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4 thoughts on “The new normal

  1. Sorry the hives are attacking again, but I can’t say I am anything but delighted to think I will see a post from you every day this month.

    If you take the hottest shower you can stand, you will itch like a mad woman while you are in there, but all the histamines in your body will have been released, and you won’t itch for eight straight hours.
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    • Unmitigated: Hmmm, hot shower? I’ll try that today. I’m considering trying the tanning booth, as horrible as that sounds (skin cancer) my skin cleared up for the summer when I was outside in the sun. Now that we are in the dark and dreary season they have returned.

  2. GAH! I hate hives – I get them so often I bring my own soap to work. I like the Aveda Hand Relief to soothe. It might help.

    Last winter, I needed a new day planner and desperately wanted one where all 7 days of the week were on one page [the other page was fabulous Anne Taintor pics]. I was complaining to a friend about how I need at least 2 pages per day, and much as I loved it and desperately wanted it, I needed to get a day planner that would fit everything all in.

    And she said, “Maybe it’s the universe telling you you need a planner where you can only plan that much each day.” And it’s been a struggle, but I’m working on just being and flowing. Very helpful.
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    • I went through a whole tube of Aveda hand relief already. It’s good stuff and expensive. Today I threw a shiny object into a deep hole; the universe, like a curious kitten, chased after. It’s so distracted I’ve gotten an amazing amount of stuff done.

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